Well, this past week was okay.
Monday we had off of school. So me, Amanda, and Kelsey went sledding. That was pretty fun. Tuesday and Wednesday we had to finish exams, so we had them in the morning and had shortened classes in the afternoon. Thursday and Friday were nothing spectacular.
I haven't been real happy lately. I've been having issues with anxiety. I can't even remember the last time I felt calm or relaxed. I am constantly worrying and I don't know what to do anymore. I try to pray about it. I feel like I'm not putting enough faith into God and that makes me feel guilty. I hate going to school because of it. I don't enjoy school at all. I just wish I could fully trust that God will help me through this. I talked to my mom and to my best friend about it. They said I have to talk about it, I can't keep it in. I'm trying...
I can't wait until summer. I'm so sick of winter and being cold. I don't want to have to wear so many layers of clothes just to go outside. I don't want to have to start my car in the morning and let it run for 15 minutes, wasting gas. I want to be warm, go to the beach, run outside, go on the atv and go go-carting. I want to drive with my windows down, watch the sunset, look at the stars, and have a bonfire.
5 more months and once again it's on...ain't nothin' like them summer nights.
I am so ready to graduate. I can't stand it anymore.
